The Funeral

Today was my Uncle JB's funeral, it was sad as they usually are, but it kills me to see my grandma sad. Jay was my grandma's oldest brother, she called them playmates.

Yesterday at the viewing, Grandma, Aunt Chris, Steven Jay and I were at the casket, Chris ( who is now completely blind) say to Steven her son, "Steven, how does he look?" and Steve started to cry... then Grandma chimed in, with that ultra calming and soothing voice that she has and says, Chris, he looks like Jay, he's at peace. I lost it... it hurts so bad to think Chris the aunt that is so much the rock of our family is now so dependent on everyone.

There were a lot of cousins there that I either never met or haven't seen since I was little, they all said I look just like my mom and some of them even cried when they saw me... I have that affect on people :-)

Although, it was a very sad day and I hated it. It was great to see all my family, I have realized today that the 35 minute drive to them isn't too far to make, EVER!!!

Matt went with me for support and he was great, at one time when they were singing, I started to cry, he didn't say anything, he just gently reached over and held my hand tightly.. those are the moments with him that I love, when he doesn't say anything, but says so much.

Afterwards we went to eat with Linda and Cara and the kids + Courtney. Matt and Cara even exchanged a few laughs :-) things are looking up they will be BFF before you know it.

that's all for today, I promise to be positive in my next post :-)
Pray for our family, there is a lot of unfinished business.