The Single life!
I am very happy with my life, me, Maggie and Brittany. We live happily ever after in our house in Glendale. brittany has her life, packed full of social gatherings and ball games, and me and Maggie our lives packed full of everyday stuff!We grocery shop, go out to eat, get ice cream, go for walks, read books, clean the house, and maybe just maybe attend a family cook out! Sounds pathetic, I know, but I love my life!
When I was married, i did everything for Brian, I cleaned the house for Brian, I cooked for Brian, I put make-up on for Brian, I did it all for Brian. now I do it all for me! then it was all about the "look" and how people perseved us to be, now that I look back on it, I was just as guilty as he was. I wanted to be the cute family that everybody looked at and said awww..... Instead, I got a divorce and Child Support every now and then and the reponsibilty of raising Maggie and making parental decisions alone. But again, I'm okay with that! It's a blessing!
I understand now, that God was not the center of our family, Maggie and I prayed at night, but Brian never did, One of our biggest fights was over going to church one particular Sunday. I never want to be in a relationship like that again! and I won't!
The one thing that I think about is Cara all the time telling me that I need to date and I need to do "Grown UP " things, I do , I go to dinner with my friends, Schneed especially! I love her. Molly comes over we do things and I go shopping with Heather and Hailey all the time. Cara and I used to do everything together but now that she is back with Robbie it is hard for her to up and go get a milk shake or go to Wal-mart. and I am OK with that! ;-) I love her and Robbie!
So.... my problem with dating is that if someone dates me, they honestly are dating, Me, Maggie, & Brittany, we are a unit. And that will not change. I will have Cara's, Gordon's, or Junior's kids over to spend the night any time they want to. Don't get me wrong, I go out and get babysitters on occasion but I am just as content staying home and watching a movie!
I'm happy with myself to the point that I'm ok if I never meet someone. Although, I would like to have more kids! ;-) but there's always adoption! ;-) or I can just borrow one from someone!
;-)
When I was married, i did everything for Brian, I cleaned the house for Brian, I cooked for Brian, I put make-up on for Brian, I did it all for Brian. now I do it all for me! then it was all about the "look" and how people perseved us to be, now that I look back on it, I was just as guilty as he was. I wanted to be the cute family that everybody looked at and said awww..... Instead, I got a divorce and Child Support every now and then and the reponsibilty of raising Maggie and making parental decisions alone. But again, I'm okay with that! It's a blessing!
I understand now, that God was not the center of our family, Maggie and I prayed at night, but Brian never did, One of our biggest fights was over going to church one particular Sunday. I never want to be in a relationship like that again! and I won't!
The one thing that I think about is Cara all the time telling me that I need to date and I need to do "Grown UP " things, I do , I go to dinner with my friends, Schneed especially! I love her. Molly comes over we do things and I go shopping with Heather and Hailey all the time. Cara and I used to do everything together but now that she is back with Robbie it is hard for her to up and go get a milk shake or go to Wal-mart. and I am OK with that! ;-) I love her and Robbie!
So.... my problem with dating is that if someone dates me, they honestly are dating, Me, Maggie, & Brittany, we are a unit. And that will not change. I will have Cara's, Gordon's, or Junior's kids over to spend the night any time they want to. Don't get me wrong, I go out and get babysitters on occasion but I am just as content staying home and watching a movie!
I'm happy with myself to the point that I'm ok if I never meet someone. Although, I would like to have more kids! ;-) but there's always adoption! ;-) or I can just borrow one from someone!
;-)
posted by Jessie at
4:36 PM
4 Comments:
You are awesome and you'll find that special christian someone, if it's in God's plan. I honestly wish one of my sons were that someone in God's plan. Is that a little crazy or what!
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You are a very strong, independent woman and I love that! Any guy should feel thankful and grateful to have you and your 300+ friends, family and kids!
Tawana, I love you! You are a beautiful person inside and out!
;-) Not to mention smart! he he ;-)
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